Writing about my favorite sport is terrifying

As I’ve written more and more about hockey over the last several months, it has been a hell of a ride. It’s great getting feedback from people, and even the fact that people are interested in what I have to say, is something I cannot fully comprehend. Even if I get a positive response from things I do, I still am just completely horrified. I haven’t felt this insecure about something in a long, long time. It’s agonizing really.

I know that the things I write about aren’t for everyone, and I know that it can piss off a lot of people, and that part is fun. I care about those who I have made friends with as I’ve interacted more with other hockey fans, those who have been supportive, those who are just as passionate about the sport as I am, and hell, people who are brilliant writers who I respect so much and look up to. People who make me want to strive to be a better writer.

I’m not saying in any way, shape or form that I do not like writing, I love writing. It’s just flat out scary.¬†Feeling passionately about something and putting 100% of yourself in something you care so deeply about is a horrifying thing. The same can be said about careers, relationships, friendships, etc. The fear of rejection is just always there, at least for me that is.

I don’t want this to seem like I cannot take any negative feedback for the things that I do, say or write. I welcome it. I want to know what I can do to be better. It’s the silence that kills me. The amount of overanalyzing that I do can be paralyzing at times. I think it’s just my personality and how I am. I’ve generally have been this way about everything my entire life and it is something that I struggle with on a daily basis.

With all that being said, I love writing about hockey. The people that I’ve met and interacted with has made everything well worth it, and motivates me to continue doing what I do. It feels good to do something that you love and you’re proud of. It feels good to be so invested in hockey and to have the courage to write about something you care about. I generally am preceived as an extrovert but in actuality it takes a lot for me to put myself out there, and hockey has helped alleviate¬†some of those fears.

I love this whole thing, it’s just scary as hell.

View From The Other Other Side: Flames @ Blues with Mike Darnay

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Your Calgary Flames, fresh off a back to back set with long time rivals and Guardians of the Royal Commission of Trash against Vancouver and Edmonton, hit the ice again tonight for a tilt with the maybe-improved-but-probably-not-really-but-still-actually-damn-good St. Louis Blues.

Kind of an expected debut to the season for the Flames. Both games had it’s ups and downs, the Flames got horribly out-possessed whenever Mikael Backlund, TJ Brodie, or Mark Giordano weren’t on the ice, Johnny Gaudreau showed flashes of how good he’s probably going to become, and the team relied far too heavily on a couple of overworked goalies who handled themselves extremely well. All this means is a half decent 1-1 record. Get used to most of this as the season goes on. Except the .500 record.

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Trevor Gillies Is A Big Ol’ Piece Of Shit

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I’m sure this comes as a big shock to you

Hi, Canafornians, I come to you tonight as a Flames fan outraged and embarrassed. Mostly embarrassed. And for reasons parallel to the usual!

I’m here to gripe about Trevor Gillies, alleged hockey player, confirmed sociopath, and overall menace to civilization. Basically I’m saying this guy is a criminal and a danger to anyone within a 6 foot radius.

Here’s the thing:

It’s 2014, okay? This is unacceptable. Gillies, inexplicably in the roster in the inaugural¬†Adirondack Flames season, for no real reason at all aside from “hey, it’s pretty obvious Willy Carrier doesn’t want to fight me and I don’t like that”, slams Carrier’s head into the ice after knocking him over. Quick reminder that ice is a very hard surface and it’s bad to try and grind someone’s important face and brain into it.

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Mike Modano vs. Stace: The Sequel

Hello there Canafornians!

Boy it has been a long time! Haterz said we were done but *cue The Carpenters* we’ve only just begun. I’ve been enjoying the summer solstice and trying to avoid all things Sharks hockey. I spent a week with floobz & jean and while I don’t want to bore you with the deetz, they are the best. ANYWAY, lets get down to business.

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Play It Again Sam (In A Different City)

Depending on which side of the aisle you sit on yesterday was either a great day (and you’re stupid and I hate you) or it was a pretty disappointing one (and you’re smart and probably very good looking). Either way we’re all going to have to figure out a new player to argue about now that Sam Gagner has been traded to the Tampazona Lioytes in exchange for Teddy (Ted) Purcell.

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